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Name: do i
Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 9/20/1900
Gender: Female
Expertise: takin naps...
Occupation: Retired
Industry: Nonprofit
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Member Since:
11/4/2003
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| soOo... once again, i hit that wall of my "glib talker" ness.
nothing really changes unless i act upon what i actually say.
all my reasonings and excuses have no support to stand upon, thus it leads to infinite regress. i whine and bitch about many things and dont keep it to myself. I'm very sure many of you guys know that i do that. i whine and bitch about EVERYTHING. but do you see me doing anything about it? the answer is easy and simple: no.
things that i do may not make any sense to anyone.
it usually doesnt make any sense to me either. and i question myself why the fuck i did those things that i did. and if i was you, i'd ask what the fuck i'm doing. cuz what i say and what i do always contradicts, and i dont understand myself.
"but hey, it's Aimee"
this is the excuse to everything.
sick and tired of hearing and saying this.
i get the feeling that it's out of their helpless feelin that they get and they're givin up on me or somethin. just settling for something that's there and easy for aimee. cuz there cant b a high expectation frm Aimee.
i wanna b happy and strong. so i guess i gotta stop whining and bitching about it. | | |
| last weekend we all went to SD to visit the SD ppl, boin n akira.
it was lots of fun... man i wish we can do this more often, but that would b a really bad idea if u think bout it. thanks to akira n boina.
so, this is how it started...
 the first nite at SD... i was drunk n most of us were....  oh... wth... steve n boin..?!?! what's goin on?!  boin, "shit, steve! we got caught makin out!!!" hahaha (they werent makin out)  yes... the three musketeers. haha n it was raining very hard here  woot woot!!  mike... gettin sick frm boin's reckless driving. n mark... i dunno  it was soOoO windy n raining  doesnt edna look so cute... n also looks like a lil kid.... haha  yeah.... we're drunk alright... n i dunno what im doin w/ that hand thing.... i think im just a big japo fob.  evelyn looks so jolly n seems like she's havin fun.... but i dunno bout mike....
n i guess this is it u guys.
sorry i couldnt put up better pictures cuz i was too drunk to take n e pictures.... | | |
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r u afraid
afraid of something?
believe it or not, everyone is.
standin on a pair of glass shoes
a glass shoes that protect u frm everything
cuz if u juss stand still, there is nothing that'll hurt u
cuz once u move, it will break n hurt u
so, just keep on relyin on that fragile shoes
a pretty glass shoes that will protect u frm the reality;
ur only string that will keep u sane.
u wont walk bcuz ure afraid that it will break
n lose ur place n b lost once again
u wont move bcuz ure afraid that it'll cut u
n lose ur mask n b naked once again
but when will u start movin forward...
there is no fairy godmother
and ure not Cinderella
there's no need to hide after midnight
start walkin, even run if u can
juss step on those glasses that will hurt u again
get rid of ur protection/ur sheild that u've made
new steps n new pains, n run if u can
but i wont move bcuz im afraid that ill lose
so ill keep on sayin that i dont wanna b selfish
n all those bullshit will protect me
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| nothing will ever make you proud if you keep on comparing me with other cousins.
nothing will ever be done if you keep on telling me about those full time students workin full time at your job
nothing will go through your head even if i yell it out.
i'm tired of it. trying to prove my point seems meaningless now.
and i'm sick of this. this discomfort and blames that i get for just being Aimee: a failure to you. | | |
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